A Perplexed Thought

aaj main ladh raha hun...
kisse ladh raha hun?
jab dekhta hun... toh koi dikhta nai...
jab sochta hun.. kuch soojta nai...
firr bhi ladh raha hun..
uss andhere mein ladh raha hun...
ya uss andhere se he ladh raha hun?
muje nai pata...firr bhi ladh raha hun...
vo andhera kitna andhera hai... nai pata!!!
firr bhi ladh raha hun...
ya khud ke andar ke andhkaar se he ladh raha hun?
kabhi kabhi lagta hai kisse ladh raha hun?
firr dur se dekhta hun..toh maano ek bhram se ladh raha hun...
paas se dekhta hun...toh...apne he aks... se ladh raha hun...
haan ladh raha hun...main khudse he ladh raha hun...

THE “MASTER” NETWORKING

Have we ever given a thought that we are connected to each other in some out of the ordinary way!!!! Guess what!!!!…. I realized this somewhat of late!!

I always used to talk to a friend of mine about another friend of mine… i used to say a lot of things about that other friend. In deep down my thoughts I always used to have a kind of silly wish that whether I would ever be somehow be able to make them meet?

I always wanted them to meet.. don’t know why!!.. but I always wanted it to happen…. I knew, it would really be a difficult task because they both were staying geographically apart and dint even knew each other personally… still don’t know why.. I wanted them to meet somehow..

For eternity I thought that I would be the common factor when they would meet, but… Why do we always suppose that the future would be reminiscent of our past, just as predictable as the great stories of some of our Hindi films!!

And as for my assumption that I would be the common factor… the assumption also went apart!!

They met and became good friends too..and guess what.. I had only a minimum role to play…. And I kept on wondering how did they meet? And…….. how amazing is this God’s own networking!!!!

We have a lot of times heard the fact that Internet is the network of networks spreading its web across the globe but we haven’t noted this so amazing network of God which connects people to each other in some or the other extraordinary way.

Have we ever tried to envisage as to how this astounding set of connections would look? To give our thought canvas a representation of veracity let us try to imagine a human being coupled with N invisible cords connected to each and every other person in the world or the world above the world.

Think… how miraculous and how outstanding the depiction would look…….

The Creator with its infinite hands controlling each and every cord and HE only knows when to amalgamate these cords…. and WE- the mere creations of that master keep on wondering as to how this happened…….

Amazing truly Amazing!!!!!

IRONY OF LIFE

As I am totting the pages of Financial Management by RP.RUSTAGI and listening to a song which goes something like this…

Na hai yeh paana…. Na khona he hai......
Tera na hona..... jaane....kyun hona he hai.....
Tum se he din hota hai..... surmayi shyam aati...
tUMse he.....
har gaddhi saans aati hai......
zINdagi kehlaati hai....
tUMse he......

I suddenly realized that I am on the same page since the past half –n –hour. Now I realized why a friend of mine specially messaged me to say that she has fallen in love with this song!!! Truly mesmerizing!! Indeed truly!!!

Hmm.. now my awestruck mind has started playing games with me(now that’s dangerous) suddenly a flashback…. 29th October 2007 sitting in the computer lab of our college two of my closest friends after reading my previous blogs said that I write with a very confused state of mind.. (I think by this they meant I am not able express my thoughts in a straightforward manner.) Is that so?
So I have decided to express my mental stratum in a very précised, stratified and in a linearly symmetrical way so that the resilience of my mental expressions and the incidence of their mental frequencies tend to congregate at a single platform to form a vibrant and expedient equilibrium of reciprocated understanding. And what irony I have decided to write on IRONY OF LIFE and after writing unerringly 223 words (till now including the wordings of the song too.) ironically I haven’t even started the topic.

Now as the irony goes on and on…. ironically I am still stuck up with the point that whether in actuality I write in a so called bemused state of mind?
Is it really true that my mental lexis don’t find a proper forum in the form of words?
If truth be told am I not proficient in giving my thoughts the right depiction of reality by expressing them in the outline of meaningful sentences?

Or the case has the ‘SO- CALLED PALPABLE ’OTHER SIDE also? Like the coin of FATE which is always two sided. Always? Is the coin really evenly on the brink? I beg to disagree a bit!!!
Veracity always poses a different depiction to this coin. Whenever we want the coin to toss up in our favors a different not so favorable side pops up, again we hope that the coin of fate will do wonders for us but again the coin wins the un-fought mêlée, again we anticipate for wonders and again the coin conquers the un-fought scuffle, we just keep sitting in the anticipation for that coin to toss up in our favor but the coin has different plans… and at last …. Dreams shattered!!! Lost all hopes!! Battered by the foul-play of the coin, we just sit cornered from everything and anything and capitulate ourselves to the bogus strength of this coin. We sit secluded with a conviction that this coin is only one sided and our favorable side has been windswept and eroded by don’t know whom and don’t know what for?
We just sit and ponder our self with an oblique question… WHY ME??? and WHAT FOR???

And in all this we forget the basic thing that “fortune always favors the brave” and it is only we who just sat and saw the reckless exhibit of this coin. If for once if we have tried to take things under our control, for once if we tried to be in driver’s seat then this game of fate would have had a completely different stature. If for once rather than being a mere spectator of this game we had tried to play it, the stature of this whole game might have been different.
For once if we had tossed the coin ourselves rather than just awaiting for the upshot it brings to us things might have been rather even-steven or even better. Its better losing a game being a player rather than being a mere spectator. So guys! atleast start tossing your coins yourself, who knows one day ends might shift and as the saying goes(a little bit of my innovation in it)…….
For those who think they cant they cannot!
For those who think they can!!!!!
Stop thinking and start tossing!!!!!


And again ironically I am on the same page and on the same song and still incongruously stuck upon the same question whether I … leave it now!!!! At last the moral of the story- don’t sit at 11pm at night to write anything on irony of life because when you do so you sardonically land up on the same page and same song and on the same question and as the saying goes again now I am in total agreement of this statement…

AN IRONY IS NOTHHING…. BUT AN IRONY ITSELF” and I love it!!!!!!

Frend-2-ship....:-))

This is my third blog. Though I was thoroughly disappointed that my previous blogs didn’t get an accustomed response as I thought. Though I don’t care... or do I ..No I don’t...(EGO !!!! damn!!)..Yes I do!!!!
But I had a ray of hope in my mind because someone… someone.. (oh! You know whom I am talking about??) No????? This means u didn’t read my second blog Mission Happiness with due interest. (If you want to know refer to paragraph fifth third line and paragraph sixth fourth line) oh! ho! I didn’t even complete the sentence, that’s her magic upon me :p. Now I should concentrate on completing my sentence.. but I am out of words… just wanted to say …that SOMEONE liked it… that was quite enough for me :p(yes it was, no it wasn’t, yes!!! (ego again!))
Today I just wanted to narrate a short story about to friends FRIEND1 and FRIEND2 (we will call them f1 and f2)
F1 and f2 were great friends(though using the word GrEaT is an underestimation of there friendship according to me). They always thought what made them so good friends. As in every friendship there are times of joy and sorrows, and the friendship of f1 and f2 was no different.
They fought like anything, hurt each other, sometimes to the extent that they even stopped talking to each other, at times they said so brash words to each other (and bRaSh means BRASH…Bloody rash!!!!! ) as to as the worst of the enemies wouldn’t have said so. But one thing was common, whatever may be the case there care for each other was as intense as there fights(even more intense)really!!!!!!..

One day

F1: f2 what makes our friendship so special???
F2: ??????? don’t know but it is special
F1: yes! You are special that’s why….
F2: hmmm….
F2: you also ok ok! :p

Another day

F2: you have hurt me a lot
F1: you are not the only person who has got hurt
F1: now don’t talk to me ever again..
F2: k! its easy for you ….
F1: yes very easy for me!!
(as can be noted above “SERIOUS FIGHT”)

Later that day
F2: you were going somewhere???? Take care and enjoy
F1: no program cancelled!!!!!!
(can be noted above “CARE” even after such a fierce fight and fierce means fierce not to mention that again!)

Next day
F2: good day (through messages on cell phone)
F1: good day (through messages on cell phone)
(Care still exits)

Next day
F1: can we talk??
F2: you only said we will not talk forever
F1: and you agreed to it…..
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And finally everything got alright between them (everything??? Hope so)

F1: I really don’t know why we fight and just fight??
F2: what makes our friendship so special???
Moral: A friendship is not made special by doing things for your friend that are “SPECIAL” or extraordinary but it becomes special by doing “SIMPLE” things “SPECIALLY”.
A friendship is not a relationship where two perfect people meet, it’s a relationship where two imperfect people learn to live and adjust and improve upon each others “IMPERFECTIONS”
We sometimes take decisions in haste like F1 did by saying: “We will not talk ever again” without noticing the fact that his decision will also affect F2 (more than himself)
and f2 also agreed silently without even saying who are you to take a decision for both of us???? How can u say “we will not talk??” using the word “we” means f1 was taking a decision for both of themselves…. That’s not correct!!! And f2 with his silent approval did a bigger mistake!!!
We often forget the basis of every fRiEnDsHiP is FRIENDS…. Therefore while taking any decision in friendship we should be aware of the fact that any sole decision of ours have its due influence on our friend also….that’s why…I just want to say while taking any decision in friendship you are not the only person who face the consequences of the decision but there is also the other person (silent acceptor) of your decision who suffers with you…. And many times even more than you. Therefore always be aware of the fact…. Its always……. FRIEND-2-SHIP
Hope so my f1 and f2 have understood there friend2ship as I have understood mine…really….hats off!!!! To my (silent acceptor) who made me realize my friend2ship…
Oh!!! forgot to answer what makes my f1 and f2’s friendship SPECIAL???????????
Hmm.. hmm… I think…. There fights…. Keeps them going on!!!…. So my dear f1 and f2…fight….. fight but with love :p))))))

MISSION HAPPINESS,,!!!! :-)

i am writing my second blog..though thoroghly disappoined that no one commented on my first blog...but here i am(a bit sad ) writing my second blog.

Today I was chatting with a friend(not to mention the name) on orkut.com(i tell you..once you start chatting...or popularly known as ORKUTTING...u seem to be a bit ADDICTED to it. BUT..i am not!or i am!.. no i am not!(ages long ego clash of mine with myself...) anyways it depends upon you...what importance you attach to your so called ADDICTIONS)...oh ho! back to the story... i was chatting with my friend and we were conversing about something...and that friend said..."WE SHOULD NEVER GIVE UP.....FOR GOD NEVER GIVES UP ON US"....again a blessed thought... and again I AM ENLIGHTENED(Told u ...that my friends are so enLIGHTENING),,,so again i am writing...with the thought never give up!!!(i dont mind if no one comments on my blog...or i do...:p)

so the topic of the day is MISSION HAPPINESS!!!!!!!!

ALPHA1!- FIND TARGET -HAPPINESS

CHARLIE1tango- target locked....

SEARCHING....SEARCHING........SEARCHING........SEARCHING..........

at last found.......14300000 articles or posts on google.com on HOW TO FIND HAPPINESS...few were as follows..
Secrets RevealedProven Secrets To Money, Happiness& Success. 100% Guaranteedwww.TheAbsoluteSecret.comHow to Be Happy"How to Be Happy and Have FunChanging the World" Free e-BookHowToBeHappy.org
Sponsored LinkHow to be happywww.HappinessAndGod.com Watch this short video on the key To happiness and joy in knowing God.

AND rest u can check yourself...

i tried to read a few....but tell u honestly....i was geting more and more depressed reading them.. they were so long...filled with alien terms of philosphy, jargons and terms which i dont think my OXFORD DICTIONARY would have ever heard of. I was thinking how could someone be happy reading all this??????? now this secret of happiness was really biting my soul.....I HAVE TO FIND THE GLORY SECRET OF BEING HAPPY!!!!!!!! the only thing i understood from reading those never-ending scripts of happiness was that...IF U WANT TO BE HAPPY>>>DO WHAT YOUR HEART SAYS.....

ALPHA1!- FIND WHAT MAKES ME FEEL HAPPY???
CHARLIE1tango- target locked....
SEARCHING....SEARCHING........SEARCHING........SEARCHING..........(not on google this time but in my heart)

result found.....BIKING, SOCCER, MUSIC, GUITAR, GIRLS :p)(though someone specific..:p)...and the list is endless...

so i started with biking....really felt good...but i am hUman(greedy for more happiness), so also played football...felt even more good...but again my greediness prevailed over my instantaneous happiness derived out of soccer,,...listened to songs...played guitar....and what luck....talked to that girl also:p)....but yet i am greedy....i want more......i tried different things.... i was running...and running....but really didn't find happiness(or i must say..i found happiness but my greed for more and more..made me overlook on that happiness..) i ran ran...really still running....running in vicious circles..... WHAT I AM RUNNING FOR??????? HAPPINESS??????

instead this race with my greed is giving me a mere ego satisfaction that - i am running for happiness...indeed this chase is giving me tiredness, anxiety, and i am loosing my present for an unknown undiscovered future...but yet...i am running...as everyone is...just like a race with nO end(DAMN!!!!!!!!!!! RACE)...who will be the winner i dont know....just competing with my EGO and GREED....RUNNING IN VICIOUS CIRCLES...and what i receive after running so much?????

NOTHING.......merely a monotonous anxiety that i have 2 run further(coz i don't want my ego or greed to succeed)...neglecting..what i really have in present!!!!!!!! really damn,,,race!!!!!!

but i just want to say......I RAN RAN ...ran(still running).... AFTER THINGS... I THOUGHT HAPPINESS BESTOWS IN THEM..RAN HERE..RAN THERE ...RAN EVERYWHERE...RAN IN CIRCLES RAN AFTER EVERYTHING.....AT LAST I GOT TIRED....I STOPPED RUNNING,,,,,ALAS I WAS HAPPY..:-)

moral- we become so busy searching for happiness that we really loose the meaning of happiness...we just become the participants of a never ending vicious circular race...

DONT TRY TO SEARCH HAPPINESS...IT IS ALWAYS WITHIN YOU.....YOU JUST HAVE TO REALIZE IT........ THE ONLY SECRET OF BEING HAPPY IS------------ JUST BE HAPPY....:-)

i am jealous......

hey... this is my first post and i hope not the last one :p anyways... the main reason i am posting this is that the reason "I AM JEALOUS"... i am jealous of a 'FRIEND' (not to mention the name) who have a beautiful blogger account on this Blogger.com... today i had a talk with that friend of mine and dat 'friend' told me about this blogging thing

though i have heard the term blogging 'i told that friend'...(though just just to satisfy my ego appetite) but on real terms i had no such idea about it. though now i know atleast the basics..(due to my enlightened friend)..... bt i am jealous not coz..i didnt knew this but due to da fact dat i visited the web page of my enlightened friend..... i am thoroughly amazed by the way my friend has portrayed so(WITH INfinite times added oooooo's) complex thougths in such a pulchritude's way inspiring me (atleast me) to potray some of my meagre thoughts....

yet 'I AM JEALOUS' the reason i dont know and dont even wanna know...

when that friend of mine asked me to give comments on the articles....i just said....3 words which i didnt want to say....ever 2 anyone(reason i mentioned..DAmn!!!!!! EGO) 'I AM JEALOUS'....but really i said that,,,the reply was STRAIGHTforward...as an arrow and it it hit me....felt the anguish and pain...but now i realise that....the arrow shot by my friend was just 2 ENLIGHTEN me........ the rply was...."U CAN PUT UR JEALOUSY ASIDE FOR A FRIEND"...damn...i was wounded twice in a day....22222222 much....but what a beautiful thought,,,,, hats off...simplicity with a precision of infinite folds...thats my friend for u.........

so this article i dedicate 2 that PRECISION of infinite folds,,to my (ENLIGHTENED) FRIEND....keep me enlightening :-)